Can’t tell how angry I am right now

DISCLAIMER: very foul language, irate behavior. I wanna leave it here, to demonstrate what this thing does to me.

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Been talking to one of my exes and she’s been saying she’s doing crypto, and I’ve been meaning to do it, too, but couldn’t ever force myself to get started.

I was trying to register on Coinbase, which is what she says she uses. First of all, the whole registration process sucks fucking bags of dicks.

I AM SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW AND I’M ANGRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO EVEN TYPE SHIT OUT FAST! I’M NOT TRYING TO TYPE SHIT FOR 2 HOURS HERE+

But if I don’t, I’m gonna drive myself crazy.

I am so angry I wanna kill myself right now.

Just so this fucking anger goes away. I’ve been taking deep breaths for 15 minutes straight now, but still wanna smash my laptop, my phone against the wall. I wanna flip tables, I wanna kick and punch shit.

And my fucking table’s legs are uneven and it’s moving the fuck around as I type this bullshit. I wanna grab this table and smash it to pieces.

I’m not getting physical, because I know that that’s a line you shouldn’t cross, cuz can’t uncross it, but fuck, I’m fighting back my anger soo hard right now. Like in movies, before my mental eyes I see myself fucking dropkicking shit throwing my laptop out the window.

I really wanna find a way, an email address, some twitter handle, some way of contacting Coinbase to tell them to suck a bag of donkey dicks and shove their fucked up app and practices up their own fucking asshole.

I took me fucking 2 hours to —

Fuck this.

Fuck all of this-

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This is my De(com)pression Chamber, a vehicle I use to (com)municate my thoughts to decompress as I, hopefully, emerge from the depths of depression.

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Decompression Chamber

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This is my De(com)pression Chamber, a vehicle I use to (com)municate my thoughts to decompress as I, hopefully, emerge from the depths of depression.

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